Friday, November 8, 2013

Happiness Mixed with Melancholy

            When I had our last day for that month specifically, it felt like time passed by slowly, it felt like it was making us feel the last moments of class for that month. When we had our recess in afternoon, one of my classmates asked why is it that even though that the schedule of giving of our cards will be next day, still none of us were worried about it. The only answer that reached my mind is that we will finally have our long period of rest when we reached our sembreak! Time passed by and it's been 1 minute before 5:00 in the afternoon when we had our final countdown. My heart beat fast because it's almost time. When the hand of the clock reached 5:00 in the afternoon, we shouted with joy, it felt like our freedom was finally handed  (it does not mean that we don't have our freedom when we have our classes.). That's when I became filled with sadness.
            It's the last day of the class in this month...and it is the last time that I'll see her for a long period of time. I know that our sembreak will only last for one week, still it is a very long time for me. But the best ting is that the moment when I went home at that time was one of the BEST moment that I ever had. It was a memorable moment for me. But there's a question in my head, will my sembreak be those days that will make me happy? 
            When I woke up on the first day of sembreak, it felt so uncomfortable for me because I'm already used on waking up early. It's the same time when I realized that I woke up 5:00 in the morning without knowing that it's sembreak already. Even though it's only the first day of sembreak, I already missed her so much. Still, I somewhat made promise that I will be happy for the whole sembreak so I didn't mind it at first. Well yes, the first day of sembreak was good and it turned out well.
            Also, even though that I told myself that I will sleep early, I stayed late at night at that time. I watched Bubble Gang and by that time, I remembered the happy memories that I had when I was in second year and the memorable moments I had this year. It made me happy but on the other side, it made me sad at that time.
             For the rest of the day, sembreak was quite fun and enjoyable until it reach 6th day of sembreak, I was filled with melancholy. It made my heart sunk at the bottom part of what it can reach. I can't even force myself to smile. I can't explain much the reason why I became this sad.
             I felt that emotion for three consecutive days. After those days, my melancholy was filled with so much happiness in myself. Also, at those days, I started doing my assignments. Even though that I know that few days were left for me to finish my assignments, I still can't focus and my laziness draws me in. But for the last day of sembreak, I was focused enough while afternoon.
            For me, the sembreak was quite fun even though that there were days were I felt so much loneliness. The best thing was that happened in sembreak was that I enjoyed it and I rested enough to sustain my needs for sleep, I guess. Also, we had a stop on the flow of assignments and projects present in school. 

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