Doctor Seuss once said, "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened". As stated in the quote, my own interpretation is that if something that you experienced which made you thousands and even endless happiness passed by and became your memories, don't feel sorry for losing it and not having it anymore, instead face the present and the future with our sweet memories, with a smile on our faces which we cannot express through words but with our true feelings and emotions. Everyone of us have memories which we want to bring back. We even want to feel again the moments we had. For me, one of the experiences that I had was felt during my 2nd year life.
During my previous high school years, even though my face projects that I felt happiness, deep inside me, I felt an emotion compared to a shattered glass that seeks the happiness I want to feel. I know, that some of my previous friends, mostly Alyza and Nathalie care for me, but I knew that a piece of me was missing. I found that we had a suspect on the time Elaiza's phone went missing. That even triggered my emotion. We suspected that it was Faye. In the end, we're all wrong. At first, I though that we will not be friends, that we will not have any connection. That's when I got it all wrong. When we had our first conversation, something sparkled in myself. At that time, I have no idea what was it. Was it just a normal impression since it's the first time I talked to her? Was it just nothing? Am I just overreacting? That were the questions spinning over my head. Even though that I already have many friends, I concluded that my friends that I will meet within this year will be different than the rest.
As time passed by, Faye and I became friends. That's when I met Jhe-ann, Paris, and Charisse. Even though that during my elementary years, Charisse was my classmate, it was different than before. I also didn't imagine that I will have a best friend that came from new Jersey. I didn't expect that we'll be friends with Alexus. One of the common things that the have are; they all like anime in which I was also influenced by them which I'm also thankful, they're all kind and very cheerful, and they won't let sadness conquer them which I am also insufficient of. As days passed by since we've shared lots of memories, we became best friends. I call them "onii-chan" at first and they called me "onii-tan". Slowly, I became more open to them and let's say that I'm having more emotions. They're always right beside me. Whenever I have a problem, they always give me advises which are helpful. Even just as simple as that, it is so much to me. Later on, Faye became the best of my best friends. I even thought of her as my actual sister. It felt like I'm her older brother even though she's older than me. Actually, it's my first time experiencing this kind of feeling even though that I have best friends before. Because of them, mostly Faye, I have some problem that I solved because of the advises I have from them. Also, I became more open to others and let's say that I became more friendly. I know, that this is just a simple change for most of us, but for me, it's one of my greatest change because I can't live or survive without having friends. I can't face a day that will come if one of my friends is in trouble. With the help of my best friends, I faces each day of my 2nd year life with soul and happiness.
When my 3rd year life came, once again my problem in terms of my emotion came back again. The first thing that I thought of was, "Will be the friendship of my best friends including me will stay the same? Or will it just break? Does it matter if I will be friends with my other classmates?" I remember the time we had our brigada, instead of spending my time with my new classmates to meet them, I just stayed on the upper level of the building with my best friends because I thought that if I will allow myself to know them, my best friends will slowly make a distance to me and our relationship will suddenly disappear. But I'm definitely wrong about it. Still right now, they're my best friends and Faye is my sister. I'm slowly adapting to my new environment and most of my new classmates became my friends. We even want to remember those days that I'm with them always. We always miss those days and we want them to bring back. But we're just thinking that we must face the present and always remember our happy memories that we've had.
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened", Dr Seuss. I know, that my 2nd year life was already over, that I'm now 3rd year student, but I know that in my heart and my soul that I really love my best friends. I'm so grateful that I knew them, I'm also happy that we became 2nd year and I became a Fluorine student. I know that with God on my side, my parents supporting me and my best friends who are always ready to help me, I can face each day with hope that everyday, my problems will always be solved and will end each day filled with happiness.
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