Life Goes On, Isn't It?

“In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.”-Robert Frost.

                Almost a year had passed since our life during 3^rd year started. We had new friends, some problems that we met which we solved, and some things and memories that kept on our mind and made a mark in our life. Yes, many things passed by within this year. We sometimes wish that we can still stay during these years every time the end of that year goes near. I always think and tell to my friends that life goes on and we slowly take one step each time a year within our life ends. We shouldn't forget the memories that we had, but instead, we should cherish those memories as we go on with our life just as what Robert Frost said.

                Whew! 3^rd year will end in a short period of time. Just like during my 2^nd year life, I wish that it will not end. At this year, I met new persons which then became my friends. I became somehow closer to others just like Roxandra, James, Aerielle and to others. Also, I met some other classmates which I found to be friendly and opposite to what I've thought of them before.

                When we first had our English Class with Mrs. Mildred Atendido or we refer to as Mam May, it felt as if it was just like we’re having a normal class in a normal day which felt like we had this class even before. I know that my brother and Mam May had a mother and son relationship and before, my brother always talks about Mam May. I just hoped that I will be also somehow close to Mam May but I knew that I cannot be the close because of my attitude.

                The class with Mam May is just a normal class while having some lecture, oral participation in the English class. Honestly, I like the English class this year more than the English class from the previous years. I just like on how Mam teaches us every lessons. The thing that I like more is that we use literary masterpieces which give me the thrill and the excitement to read and understand the all.

                I remember the part when Mam gave us the 6 shakespearean masterpieces I think. I was determined to read all of the books, but I was conquered by laziness which caused me not to read all of them. But, I read until the 2^nd to the last I think.

                In also liked the other literary masterpieces such as those that were written by Edgar Allan Poe. I just wished that we can read more literary pieces but we’re running out of time. It was really more fun with literary pieces included in the study.

                There are moments when I am somehow pissed off when it comes to a large group performance or even a class performance. Whenever we have that there are some persons that are trying to be the know it all type of person. Whenever we’re becoming serious, they are the ones who will cause noise and will not cooperate. And when it’s almost time, they will get serious and they will harm everyone which makes us look like an idiot. I hate them. Also, I know that there are ideas that might help in contributing for the performance, but they just stay silence and instead of helping, they will not cooperate and will not give mind on practicing. The thing that I hate the most is that whenever that time’s running out, they’re asking for an idea. But, whenever I gave some idea, they’re not listening to it! Even just a small attention or even that they will just hear my side, they wouldn't! How will I have the courage to tell them my ideas if they will not give an attention to it? I’m not saying that they must do my ideas, I just want to say, please hear my thoughts only. Even just that, I will be glad.

                The most important thing that happened to me at this year is that when I finally found the girl that made my heart beat and will be with her forever. She is the one that I will love forever. I will never leave her. Even though that me and her had so much argument about some certain things, we were still together and our relationship became stronger and stronger as time passed by.

                We all know that nothing will be with us forever. We all know that time always passes by in our life. Let’s not waste our time regretting that it’s almost time to leave. Instead, we must greet the new chapter of our life and let’s all of hope for the best of it. 

I'm So Sorry

Block 6 Lot 8 Phase 2, Villa Apolonia,

Naic, Cavite

February 07, 2014

Dear Father,

               

                I’m so sorry about everything. I’m so sorry if I still haven’t fixed our argument even though it was still before.

                I don’t know what I’ll say. I don’t know how to say sorry to you. I still don’t know if you could still accept this apology. I know that I made a mistake about it and I’m so sorry about it. I know that you’re thinking that I’m filled with reputation or pride or that I’m naive to admit my mistake. That’s definitely wrong. I just don’t wnat to be wrong once again. I just want to be like what we are before.

                I know words cannot explain much. I just really want to say I’m really sorry.

Your Son,

Jeremiah

Am I A Special Person? Is It?

                Everyone have their own unique characteristics. Out of 7 billion persons currently living in this world, there might come a possibility where there are some which also possess the name that we have. Names, physical appearance and other things don’t make us special. Of course, we don’t have the same physical appearance as with others. But the thing that distinguishes us all is within ourselves. Our own personality makes us difference from one another. Do you know why? Because that’s what makes us special. The way on how we talk to others, the way on how we laugh, and mostly, the way on how we show our true selves to others makes us special.

                What about me? What makes me special? What do you think? Actually, I still haven’t found that “thing” which makes me special to others. Well, I can just assume what is special within me. The one special about me is being who I am in a way which doesn’t hurt others, instead makes other persons mostly those important to me bring their laugh and their smile onto their faces. Yes, I am a joker. I’m a person who has lots of jokes that I can give to them but I don’t know the right way on how to deliver those jokes to them. Every time I tell a joke, they will say that it’s “corny” or it’s not funny. I’m still glad about it. Even though it’s not funny, it is somehow that those jokes entered through their mind and their brain processed the jokes that I gave which makes me happy. I love the part of me whenever I see even just one smile and one laugh and it brings me a never ending happiness. At least, I caused someone to be happy for such a short time.

                What other things make me special? I give so much important to my friends, to my family and mostly to my love. I cannot imagine if I lose them. I know that somehow, I lose my friends from time to time because as time passed by, we lose contact to each other and other reasons. Even though that there are others which doesn't consider me as their friend, everyone that I met, I consider them as my friend even from the start. There is just a problem within me that I’m shy whenever I meet some which I do not know much. I love them so much. I cannot afford to lose them mostly my family and my love. I will do anything for them.
                I cannot think much more about why I'm special. I just know that I'm special because my name is Jeremiah J. Quinto, the person that they knew and forever will be.

Letter to God

Dear God,

          It’s been almost 15 years since I was born unto this world. When I had my first crawl, walk and other stuffs, they were always at my side. When I opened my eyes for the first time, they were the one I saw first. Even though that I cannot remember any more about my past life, there’s one thing that I know; they guided me, took care of me and loved me for so long.

          Once, one of my teachers told our class, “You’re one of the luckiest persons and children in the world because even right now, you still have your mother and your father.” That’s correct for that I already met those that somehow lost one of his parents or other tragic events. Even though that I just think of it, it is difficult to be overcome and to meet each day knowing that fact.

          I know that I am one of the luckiest people. I still have my mother and my father. I can be with them always. They’re always at my side and whenever I have a problem, they have their own advises which always help me. They took care for me for almost 15 years and it will be longer. They have their patience whenever I’m becoming a stubborn person.

          I know God that there are times when my stubbornness reaches its limit. I cannot even imagine how they can endure those moments and what kind of magic they have because they can calm me down. I still remember when my parents tell me my childhood days. They said that before, I strike my head on the wall whenever I cannot get what I want. The only reason that I can think of why that mannerism disappeared is because of their magic.

          Yes, I know that we have arguments and some misunderstandings. Mostly, the cause of these arguments is my immature thinking. They always say that the one registered to my mind is that I’m always right. Yes, I admit it, I’m always like that. I know that it’s a bad attitude and I’m very sorry about it.

          No words can describe the things my parents did for me and also for my brother. They raised us to be a good, decent child. The things that I have now are because of what they did and what they sacrificed. The thing that I reached right now and even in the future is because of what they did. If it weren’t for them, I will not be like this. If it’s not because of them, my life is nothing but a ruin.

          Lord God, I am so thankful that I was born and I was raised by my parents. I don’t know how I can pay or return the good deeds they did for me. I just wanted to tell You that I just wish that my parents will have a good life to come. I wish that they will be happy and they will have a longer life. I cannot express much about the things I wanted to tell them. The thing is that I love them very much.

A Proud Son of My Parents,

Jeremiah

Regrets

         In our life, we have things that we regret that we wished not to happen. “What have I done?” Those are the words that we usually say once we saw the results from the mistakes that we did. We all know that we cannot bring back the moments when we made those regrets. We can only stop these things if we can only change that certain mistake that we have within our own selves.

                There is just one thing that I regret the most even right now; Being I. It is somehow weird that I regret being myself. But that is the truth. I regret those moments whenever I’m becoming my own self. This results for someone important to me to be hurt. There is a part of me where I’m a selfish, stubborn and a careless person. I know that I regret it but there are moments when I just notice that I am myself once I realized that I made a mistake. I always think that there is a mistake in everything. It is somehow that my brain always looks for a mistake and a deep explanation where I will easily believe on it and it will cause an argument to someone. That’s how my mind perceives on the things that I see, hear, feel and know. There are times when I will just stay silent. That deafening silence causes me loneliness and regrets.

                Right now, I’m starting to change myself. She told me to change my way of thinking because if I will maintain this kind of thinking, it will just cause a never ending argument between us. I’m thinking about the ways on how I will change myself. I should start on knowing about my own self. I know that somehow, with the help of this, I might know the mistake within myself. I know that it’s a difficult problem because the conflict is within my own personality. I have no other choice but to do it in order for me not to cause anymore problem to others. According to her, even though it’s just a small thing, I’m starting to change, not for the bad effect but for the good cause. 

This Day Finally Came

             This day finally came. This is the day that I’ve waited for so long that I think of this event every time. I became so nervous when I arrived at a restaurant where I will meet a mysterious man, a man with his own creations that are world class stories. As I look at my watch, I can feel the ticking of the clock. It felt like I can feel even a tiny sense because of my tension and excitement.

             When I heard that a person entered the restaurant, I turned back to see who entered the room. I was filled with joy when I saw that man. He was the one and only Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. Sir Arthur Conan Doyle is a novel writer that created one of the most outstanding characters in the field of fiction books. That character is known as Sherlock Holmes.

“A pleasant afternoon to you Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. I’m very sorry for causing you trouble to meet up with me sir. I owe you an apology”, I said.

“Oh please, don’t you worry about it. You’re not causing trouble to me. It’s that I’m grateful that even kids your age are interested and reading my novels””, he said.

“I’m very sorry to disappoint you sir Conan Doyle...the only novel that I’m reading is Sherlock Holmes only”, I said.

“Oh, it’s all right, the good thing is that you’re reading my novel, but why is it that Sherlock Holmes gave you the interest to read?”

“I’m a type of a person that is interested in novels with a genre of mystery. When I first knew about Sherlock Holmes, it was said that the character in that novel is in high intelligence and solves cases which gave interest to me. That’s when I started reading Sherlock Holmes also because my brother has the two volume of your book “, that’s what I said to him.

“So that’s how you met my fictional character”, he said.

After Sir Arthur Conan Doyle finished his statement, he signed the waiter to bring him water. As he drank his water, I started again the conversation we had.

“Sir, can I start asking you questions about your work but the main topic that I will ask is about Sherlock Holmes?...”, I said.

“Yes of course, you can now start”, he smiled after saying those words.

“Why is it that the line or the genre of the novels that you mostly write is in line of mystery?” I asked.

“Our mind is a vast space containing things that we have maybe because of our imagination, our experiences in life or even the things that we want to do can effect on how way we think. It is that the way I think mostly provokes the detective part of me which makes me having those types of novels. As the same as yours, your type of thinking provokes the detective part of yourself”, he said.

“Nosebleed...Just kidding sir”, I said.

We had a laugh at each other and the conversation continued.

“What is your inspiration on writing novels even in other genre?” I asked.

“I can say these things only; first is that you must discover yourself. Next thing is that you must learn what type of genre you wish to write. When you already achieved that kind of goal, the only way to write good novels is that it must come from your heart. You must write or have the idea in your novel only are those that came from your heart”, he said.

“Thank you for answering that question sir. How did you create Sherlock Holmes sir Conan Doyle? “I asked.

“That is a type of a question that I cannot answer, I’m so sorry. Only you can answer that question.” he said it while looking straight to my eye.

I was filled with fear during that time because it felt like he was serious. I started asking him again when I felt that he was smiling at that time.

“Err, sir, why is it that you let Moriarty die in one of your short story entitled as “The Final Problem”?”

“I will let all of the readers of this book even you yourself to discover the reason why I allowed Moriarty to die in the Reichenbach Falls.”

When I looked at my watch, I realized that it was afternoon. That’s when I remember that I have another appointment to have with.

“Sir Conan Doyle, I wish that I can have longer time with you, but there’s an appointment that I had with my client this afternoon. I’m so sorry for this kind of event. Once again sir, I appreciated the time that you used for me to have a conversation with you sir.” I said.

“Mr. Quinto if I’m correct, there’s no need for you to be sorry. I am glad that I can have a time with a person that is interested in one of my books. I also want to say thank you for allowing me to know you. See you again next time Mr. Quinto”, he said.

“See you again next time sir Arthur Conan Doyle”

As we walk away from that restaurant, I once wish again that we will have another conversation someday.